Time is flying by...

Time seems to be flying by. People told me that my senior year would be done and over with before I even had time to blink, but I never believed them. I am a true believer of this philosophy now! Graduation is looming, and it seems like there a million things to be done before I can be free for a few months before college. I have to get financial aid, grants, and scholarships for college--something that I never would've dreamed would be so complicated. I also have to make sure that I can live with my aunt and uncle during my college years, because if I can't well....I'm screwed. I also have a research paper on globalism coming up. I don't even know what I'm going to write about, and so therefore and can feel the panic beginning. I also have a computer assignment to make up a website, and I have no clue what I'm doing and I don't think anyone else does either. With all of these things, the list just gets bigger and bigger! Pray that I have the patience and motivation to get things done!

Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missin'
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the brokenhearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see.


This is an amazing song (or part of a song) called Give me your eyes by Brandon Heath. When I heard it, I was really moved. It touched my heart. I think this should be all of our prayers, everyday. To be able to see, feel, understand, and have compassion for others is amazing. But to be able to do all that through God is even better. So this is my prayer: that I would be able to look around and see things more fully, to be able to have compassion for the lost, and so much more. This song became my prayer.

*Lyrics may not be fully correct, until I look them up. I only did it from my memory!*

Scars of Time

So many thoughts, thoughts that won't go away. You try to mush them out of your mind. What better way to forget? Yet they linger. A teasing memory that is forever there, waiting, waiting for you to remember. When you do remember...it's a shock. You sit and remember and you cringe. How could you have forgotten so very easily? No, you didn't forget, you hid the thought, it was still there all along. For the most part you don't remember anymore, but from time to time it hits you like a brick in the face. As harsh and cruel as a windy winter day. Why can't you block it out? You try so hard, but horrible memories such as those never go away. It's like a scar on your memory, and it's permanent, not one of those scars that fade with time.... forever haunting.

Christmas is coming!

Christmas is coming soon and I can't wait! I'm not getting much, but I don't care it's still my favorite time of year! I love Christmas Eve even more than Christmas day. I help my grandma decorate their Christmas tree, and I take my cousins', aunt and uncle's, and grandparent's presents and put them under their tree. Then at night we go out and look at all the Christmas lights, and when we get back we hang our stockings on above the fireplace. At 8 o'clock starts the 24 hour marathon of the movie A Christmas Story on tbs. I love this movie! It's my favorite Christmas movie ever! I love giving presents just as much, possibly more, than giving them! I love to wrap presents, and then see people unwrap them. Christmas is the best time ever! Then a day or so later is my second Christmas! I simply can't wait! MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! or as some would say- HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND MERRY NEW YEAR!!!

Shaved Leg

Throughout my life, my brother never ceases to amaze me with the randomness he has. Yesterday I went home, sat down on the couch and turned the TV on. My brother turns to me and said,"Look what I did!" He then proceeded to pull up his pant leg. At first I didn't realize what exactly he was showing me until I saw what he had done. My dearest 20 year old brother had shaved his leg, and badly too by the looks of it. I couldn't believe my eyes. I asked him why in the world he'd do such a ridiculous thing, and he replied that he thought it would be funny. My only hopes are that he didn't use my razor! So fellow peoples of the world I need your help. I need reasons, other than "I thought it would be funny", for why in the world a guy would shave his leg or legs.

P.S. My brother is planning on shaving the other, it just took him so long to shave the first that he didn't want to spend another 20 minutes shaving the other.

Youth Group

My youth group is totally awesome! Pastor Mara is the best youth pastor there is. If you haven't been there you should be! We have the best games ever and way to much fun. It's not just fun and games it's about God too!

Awesome Accountability Partner!!!

So in my youth group we were signed accountability partners. They're meant to help you grow in the Lord, be there for you, brighten your day, and much more. My accountability partner Mary is the best of the best. She asks me how my heart is, and when she does it brightens my day to know she cares. Hopefully we'll be meeting sometime like once a week to pray together. I haven't talked to her about it yet, but I will. Stay tuned to hear more about Mary and I!!!

Don't take it personally...

Alright some of you seem to be taking the tattoos and God post like I'm insulting you. I may be misjudging this, but just to clarify... that's my opinion. It doesn't have to be yours. However, do something that most people are not willing to do. Put aside the emotions and connections and traditions that go along with your reasons for getting tattoos. Just think about God, and whether or not He'd want you to get a tattoo. I understand the meaning behind getting tattoos of family members... this is tough for me because it is an expression of sadness. As a person who thinks most tattoos are hideous and doesn't believe in them...even I might consider it. However, I then think about whether or not God would want me to do it. There are other ways to express things, and it doesn't have to include causing bodily harm. I guess we'll only know in heaven whether we were right or wrong. If I'm wrong I'll find all of you who were right and apologize. If I'm right hopefully you'll do the some.

Love, peace, and the pursuit of happiness.

Growing Apart

There comes a time, I think, in every person's life that you see the people you love slipping away from you. As we grow older you and your friends grow apart. People that used to be your best friends suddenly never want you over, don't really tell you anything about their life, don't listen to the things you have to say, and suddenly they seem to be mad at you more often. You see that you're friends are focusing on leaving and will do anything to do so... even if that means leaving you behind. I've experienced this and it breaks my heart. So what do you do when you've realized that your best friend has dumped you? Any thoughts? I for once don't really know or even have an answer...

Jumping In...

So I'm jumping in to what will be the craziest year of my school career. It's my senior year and already everything is in full swing, and now I will be devoting my time to helping teachers in my study hall time instead of doing my work. This won't be just once or twice a week this will be Monday through Friday. So pray that I'll hold my patience, keep up with my work, and most important of all have a good time!